When i call there, thee just talking like nothing happen as usual, so as it is urgent...i will definately ask what happen...thee say admitted to hospital Sg Buluh at 4th floor "I'll going to die soon...with happily talking..."
My respond was just like...what?? die?? what you kidding again?? After i keep askin...thee answer me that doctor just wanted thee admit for more detail check up...Well as for these recent weather could contribute to unnecessary Sickness...As since thee admitted into Sg Buluh hospital (recent AH1N1 quarantine and treatment hospital), i was initially thought thee caught on that....but thee say not!!! At the end, i wasn't much question thee anymore...
Until at night, i think very deeply, it seems something serious until doctor ask thee for the admission, so i've questioned thee again...Eventually thee tell me thee got = Brain tumour level 3 = i was totally speechless, after i calling thee and talk, my tear drops continously... that time my mind was totally blank...what is happening? Am i dreaming? or it is just an ordinary funny joke??
I totally cannot accept the fact that thee experienced!!! Plus, this thing already happen since long time ago, thee not story about it to me because thee considering about not involve of my worried as i'm still study in past 4 years...
Oh dearest God....what can we do now? As brain tumour no cured..that's only two options to go, first by consuming medicine to stand for the pain and at least 4-5 years life...second is to shorten the pain period by operation, but result is life time just around 2-3 years....thee has chosen the not to operate!!!
How long the instead time we still have to spend??? along this few years...that's too much thing we have facing, too much thing we have experienced!! Until hardly to get into stable life, i was think that thee can now have a good life along...but again new "waves" come forward!!! I'm tired...i'm tired not because of the road we both cross along, but that was me unable to undertake this kind of test God giving...
How is the future life i going be filled? How could thee face and accept this fact that being such strong? How could i continued on this journey without thee? Even if i'm such strong, i don't think i can be such energitic to continued...it's harder than ppl think, my brain are totally black out!!! I've flash-back all the past moment that spent...non-stop with tear again~




