everything seems not going on smoothly

Actually i've experienced so much problem throughout after i finishing my bachelor degree...
planning are not well planned, instead my degree supervisor create and contribute me the opportunity in the future, back up preparation wasn't much made...but just as the case of not my fate, the first attempt failed (initially thought it is secured to got the offered).

After that, i'm totally desperating...all of things need to be started from initial--planning change wanna continue postgraduate study... after spending of another one month plus, and even cancel all the interview call with reason continue study (i'm too confident and thought i will success got the offer), with additionally more problem encounter to the supervisors i met (one of them has run off their research grant, so unable to hire another research assistant)...again, no back up plan, Well, my dream to pursue my studies was definately need to delay unhave been done...til next years...

Now, again starting from ZERO, i've continued apply as much work as possible...coz too long i've been in home without having income...coming friday will have an interview at Shah Alam...Wish me all the best~