An Accident!!

I'm having accident past few day, erm...just happen wednesday instead...i'm not involve in car accident nor other sort of accident, but this one is slight much more unlucky accident...My face and eyes splashed with chemicals!!!!!

This happen when after lunch time..i've given work to prepare an additive consist of Xylene, and two others additives(one is liquid and another is powder) into a mixture, if i not mistaken one of it was acid catalyst...while the mixture are in high speed stirring, my panel knife suppose to scratch those undissolve powder...the accident happen, the stirrer stuck with the panel knife, and causes the mixture splash out high until reaching my face accurately just within one second (well...it's not that myself being careless, but this is where we really couldn't expect it will happen like this...) could you really avoid it with your own speed??

that moment what i do? without panic...i ran to the wash equipment...i've no idea whether the mixture has contacted with my eye or just the skin, my face and eye starting feel like burning pain..it's kind of unexplainable pain...i think it is just the same feel as those people injured from acid attack...i've struggle with the kind of pain for roughly 15 minutes, eventually i keep on shout stepping me leg, can't stand the pain at all, something like a wound pour with spices or salt?? That moment my mind keep emerging alot of things...am i going to disfigured?? am i going to blind? am i look ugly now? am i going to sacrifice myself for this stupid company?? how if my parent know what happen to me now?？

Thru the photo taken, i've already at home from mc..compare to the photo, my eye is much more reddish in initial...

After all the chemicals are remove from my face...i still keep washing with plenty of water, i try to touch my face the check whether my face spoilt, i try see thing to check my vision...thank god, i still can see, but my skin has swollen...find very hard to open my eyes bigger...Now i don't even dared to tell my parent about this, after their known, will i getting sound for years maybe.. But thankful to my parent, when the time i taking chemistry course, they already worried and concern about how dangerous my future career is!! I will bear in mind, save my own life much more than sacrificing for a worthless company!!!! They earning, but you are suffering, this the working world!!

After flushing my eye so long, my senior only brought me to the company panel clinic for checking...well, this is the way to secure myself, washing with plenty of water is a must, before goingt to consult doctor!! when doctor checking, he just merely using a nameless eyes drop for me without any further washing for my eyes...what i feel is very unsecure that like without doing anything at all...after that just giving me a small bottle of eyes drop together with two allergic medicine...when back home, i found out that the skin of my eye blistering...very awful!!! But thank god my face is still the same, my look still there, but one thing i might worried is xylene is benzene derivatives, is definately carcinogenic, could eventually bring to cancer!! Sigh...

It is true that coating industry are much more risky...but this never defeat my passionate to be a chemist, i can choose other field of industry actually...foods, pharmaceuticals, cosmetics and so on... which are much more safer if compare to the present work now!!